In case anybody wants to know what it's like to jump back into the pool after a month away and a lot of that resting in bed, the answer is, IT SUCKS. I feel like I've gone back in time to the month I started with the swim team way back in '07. I get extremely tired, I take hits from my inhaler because I get so winded and I actually get out of the water with sore shoulders and arms. Last Sunday I swam 1800, my longest distance since I started back. Yeah. 1800. When I was turning in like 3200 at least once a week and training up to 5000. If that 5000 meter race were really in July, as originally scheduled, I'd be screwed. The rumor now is that it's going to be in September. I'd like to say September is no problem and I'll be back to fighting form in nothing flat, but then I also said I'd be over this pneumonia thing in a week and that didn't exactly work out, so I'm hesitant for my brain to start writing checks my body may not be able to cash.
So I realized today that I've gotta do what I've been putting off doing. I gotta go back to the gym and start lifting weights again. I'm no Arnold Schwartzenbarfer, but I used to lift weights and it helped my swimming a lot. I gotta build up those wing muscles. Luckily there is an LA Fitness right down the street from my office, and if I actually leave on time I should be able to squeeze in a good 30-45 minutes on Tuesday and Thursday nights. Again, that's leave ON TIME, not whenever I get to a logical stopping point. I could feasibly work all day and all night for weeks and I'd never get all the stuff done that I'm supposed to do. But I do keep us two steps ahead of the next crisis, and sometimes that's all you can ask for. Especially in a law firm.
In other news, I'm going to turn 47 in a couple of weeks here. This means I'm no longer in my middle forties; I am now in my late forties. Joan, who just turned 57, is probably laughing at me right now, but the other day it occurred to me that I'm probably past the mystical halfway point, unless I plan on living to be 96. Yep. Half my life is already in the can and I'm working on the second half.
So what am I gonna do for the second half, you ask. Well, let's see. I think I'm going to hang around with family and friends as much as possible, share big laughs and small stories, and be as unserious as possible. I'm planning on a little more meditation and a little less anxiety. Less sugar, for sure, more fruits and vegetables. Less wasted time on the news (I'm not supposed to watch the news; it upsets me). More trips to Austin. Fewer doctor's appointments. And who knows, maybe I'll write something. Else. Something else.
By the way, it's Mental Health Awareness Month. So be aware.